I am taking a short break from gathering things for a yard sale. I am going to AR for a week, and helping my mom have a sale next weekend. I realize that I could go through stuff around here for a year and still not be finished! How DOES the "stuff" accumulate?
As I was thinking about how the material things accumulate in our lives, it made me think about all of the other things that pile up in our lives, as well. As you may have guessed by my infrequent posts, there have been a lot of "things" overwhelming me lately. And, whether by my own doing, or by circumstances beyond my control, some days it seems like my life is crumbling around me. Yes, I KNOW that GOD is still in control, but frankly, I am having a very hard time hearing what He wants to tell me. I am struggling with some extremely hard decisions right now, and earnestly seeking His Will in my life. My personality has always been one of a "pleaser". I am fully aware that this can be a huge flaw - I am constantly trying to make the paths smooth, and it just doesn't always work. I'm not a control freak, so I'm not trying to orchestrate how it all works out, but the figuring it all out part has been overwhelming. I have strained relationships all around me, and I can't see myself coming out of this trial without a lot of pain, no matter how it works out. Of course, I will never discount God's ability to work a miracle, but that's the only way I see it happening; I know that I can't do it on my own.
After I spend a week at my parents' home in AR, I plan to head out for a "retreat" for a week or two - just to be alone with God, without distractions, and SEEK HIS FACE, asking for wisdom and direction in the trials I face. So, I am asking for your prayers in this way: please pray that I can discern God's voice, God's will, and God's plan for my life, and those around me who are involved with the situation. That is all. I have realized that GOD is the only one I have to please, and if that is done, then the rest will fall into place.
I wish, as we all do from time to time, that I didn't have earthly flesh.....meaning that I wouldn't make mistakes and have to deal with the consequences of those mistakes. But, I know that as long as I live here on earth, I WILL be human, and that involves "messing up" occasionally. Even the most spiritual person you may know will fall from time to time......whether by design, or omission. Our hope lies in the fact that God has promised that He will never leave or forsake us; that He has our best interest in His heart; that He loves us and cares for us; that He has walked this road before us, and will be there waiting at the end of it for us; and that, most certainly, we will rest at peace
In His Grip!
P.S. Look for a post in about 2 or 3 weeks, and I will certainly let you know what I learned on my journey!