.....But if it's as mild as it has been, I am totally okay with it! I am not much on cold weather (I always said I could be a "snowbird"), so the mild temperatures have not bothered me one bit. The groundhog only told us what we figured was true, anyway!
Well, as you can imagine, life has continued to be a bit chaotic, and still stressful. I have been blessed through it all, though. I have been to court twice over visitation rights with Isaiah, and the judge has wisely ruled that I should be allowed to have him in my home every other weekend. While I wish it were more, I am truly, truly grateful to God for that gift! I have had one weekend with him, and will go get him again tomorrow. It was so great, and I am really looking forward to being with him again! He is such a precious little boy, and I feel so privileged to be a part of his life. I pray that I will be able to use my time well with him, and that God will multiply the love that grows in his heart. I also pray for safety, as I travel back and forth on Friday and Sunday to pick him up and drop him off (3 1/2 hours each way).
[UPDATE here: Halfway to going to pick Isaiah up on Friday, I found out he was sick, so I was unable to get him this weekend. Hopefully next weekend, though.....]
The stress comes in dealing with this entire situation, that is so foreign to me. I confess that I am having trouble some days in loving those who hurt me, and in praying for them......but I promised God I would try, and I am trying, even though I am human, and I fall short of the mark - a lot. Please continue to pray as we try to work out details, and move on.
Then, there are the everyday stresses that are a part of normal life. Ordinarily, these are situations that crop up and are dealt with, but as many of you well know, when added to more pressing issues, they sometimes seem overwhelming. (On that note, if anyone knows of an insurance company that will insure my house after the flood I had inside this summer, PLEASE help me.......apparently being a loyal customer of a company for over 30 years is not enough these days, and no one wants to insure me. What is that about??????)
Having said all of that, though, I know how very blessed I am. I have been able to be in Arkansas 3 times during January, spending time with my parents and father-in-law. I am aware how precious that time is, as my father's health, in particular, continues to decline. I posted yesterday on Facebook that I sure could use a hug, and I was amazed at all of the love that came my way! Again, I am so blessed. God has used you, my "cyber" friends, in ways that you will never know, and I want you all to know how deeply I appreciate and treasure each word you write to me. More than that, I feel prayers that come my way. And, I want you to know that I do pray for the requests you ask of me, too. I am not always able to respond individually to them, but I do take them to the Father on your behalf.
Earlier this year, I was reading a devotional that was centered around the old hymn "Amazing Grace". That day, I was able to see it in a new way. When I read the part that said, "Twas grace has brought me safe thus far, and grace will lead me home", it suddenly hit me: Looking back over my life I see time and time again the way God has worked in my life; He never set a limit on the grace that He would provide - it is new every morning! So, that same grace that has brought me through past difficulties will still guide me through the challenges that come my way! Hallelujah! If I ever needed a concrete reason to have faith, I got it that day. While I (any of us) may not be able to see the "hows" and "whys" of the paths that lie before us, all we have to do is trust the God Who is ALREADY THERE! Enough said.
While we wait for the season of Spring to arrive in our respective areas, may hope and love spring eternal within each of our hearts...........as God holds us lovingly
In His Grip!