OK, 2nd attempt at this post. I wrote a very heartfelt one this morning early, and then proceeded to lose it as I tried to post. Oh well, there is a reason for everything.
Life continues to be a whirlwind, but that is neither new, nor unexpected. Week before last, I was in AR, and we were trying to make some hard decisions concerning my sweet Daddy. My mother and brother who lives with them are just about exhausted with their tasks as caregivers (one of the hardest jobs there is), and Daddy was getting to the point where it was terribly hard for them to maneuver him around the house. After a lot of talking, we decided that we will try to keep him home as long as possible, with the aid of some additional help. Then, on Thursday, 4/4, we ended up having to take Daddy to the ER, and he was admitted to the MICU, where he still is. He has had no nourishment, other than IV fluids since his admission, and has been mostly unresponsive, except that he is in a highly agitated state, and his new health issues seem to be causing him a good deal of pain. It is so hard to see anyone you love in this state, but that "Daddy/daughter" bond makes it terribly difficult for me. As hard as it is to voice this, I have asked God if He doesn't see fit to restore Daddy to us for a while longer, to not let him linger in this condition. My mom is extremely tired, in addition to the grief she is feeling, and also the guilt, if she leaves him for any length of time (I soooooo "get" this). So, prayers for our family would be appreciated very much. My brother who lives with me and I are going back to AR on Monday for the week.
Since there will be more of us to divide time, I hope to be able to visit with Doug more this week in AR. He is doing well, except for a recent fall, which left his ankle very tender, and caused some scrapes and bruises. He didn't slow down much, though, and is staying busy, and making new friends.
Jordan and Jessica are doing well, and Jessica seems to be recovered from her recent illness. In fact, she has been recruited by the Miami Grand Opera for a role in their current production of "Romeo and Juliet" (go Jessica!). She will be in FL for a few weeks, doing what she loves - sword fighting! So, if you are in the area, be sure to go see my petite daughter-in-love, as she wields a huge sword, while doing flips and rolls, and being quite the star! Jordan is in CA, meanwhile, holding down the fort, and taking care of my 2 grand-dogs. I had to laugh this week, as he told me of their latest escapades. There has been a squirrel in their back yard for months, who has given them fits. Besides tormenting the dogs, he chatters incessantly, and often wakes everyone up. As Jordan was sitting on the couch, working on something, the dogs came in from outside, and sat at his feet. He reached down to pet them, and narrowly escaped petting the dead squirrel instead (we are not sure if the squirrel died of natural causes, or violent ones, but as their grandmother, I am going to say they had nothing to do with it). I just laughed, though, and told him "Welcome to the world of pet parenting!".
Chelsea continues to keep herself busy with work, church activities, and friends. She is planning a trip abroad in May, going to the wedding of a friend she made while on her mission trip in Poland, and then travelling and seeing other friends on the continent. Needless to say, she is very much looking forward to it. The back injury she received from her car wreck last summer flared up again yesterday, so I know she would appreciate your prayers for her in that respect.
As for me, I have Isaiah again this weekend, and am loving every minute of it. He is such a bright spot in my life (and everyone else's in this family), and he fills this home with joy and laughter when he is here. That boy is growing like a weed, and can give the best hugs! He is so happy when he is here with us, and none of us are ever ready for him to leave, but we are so very grateful to God for allowing us to remain in Isaiah's life, in whatever capacity He chooses. It doesn't stop the tears and heartbreak I experience every other Sunday when I have to take him back, though.
I still have unresolved legal issues, that apparently don't fit the timeline I had preferred. This is another area of my life in which I have had to re-learn lessons that I have learned many times before. I have never understood how I can so easily forget lessons that I thought I had tucked away in my heart for future reference. Thank God His mercies are new EVERY morning, and His faithfulness is great. It's apparent that, left to my own devices, I have a tendency to mess things up, so I stop several times daily to remind myself that GOD is in control, and I don't have to worry (then I forget again, and try to pick it up, and have to stop and start over again.....). Recently, I was reminded of a verse that I can now apply to my life in a whole different way. It's amazing how that happens. Truths that we may have read many times suddenly become real to us as they apply to us now. God left us such a wonderful gift in His Word. It never changes, yet it can appear new and fresh at the time we need it most. Exodus 14:14 (NIV) says, "The LORD will fight for you; you need only to be still". (KJV) says it this way: "The LORD shall fight for you, and ye shall hold your peace". Wow.
So, as I try my best to be still, and WAIT, and let the LORD fight the battles that lie ahead, I am confident that I have a Savior Who cares; Who loves me; Who will give me comfort, whatever the situation may be; and Who holds me gently
In His Grip!