OK, I know it's been the longest stretch yet since I posted, but I am still alive and kicking. I've purposely avoided writing for a few weeks, as I've had a period of "dryness", both in writing, and in my personal life. I've struggled a lot lately with loneliness, and trying to find direction in my life. I tend to internalize when this happens, and I send apologies for the absence.
I know we all go through seasons of wandering; I am no different. While in the middle of it all, I know that God is still directing my paths - I've just not been able to see where He is leading. That is often the case with many of us. But just because we can not see His plan, it NEVER means that He is not with us. He never moves, never changes. When I feel distant from His voice, it is not because He is not speaking; it is because I may be too busy to hear it.
So, while I keep busy with way too many irons in the fire, at the end of the day, I come home to a lonely place. I am working on this. I am my own cheerleader, and I constantly remind myself to count all of my blessings, which are abundant, and more than I deserve. There is a purpose for me, and I look forward to figuring it all out. I am truly blessed beyond measure with the volunteer work I do; with my family and friends; with still having Isaiah in my life; and oh, so much more!
I am taking this weekend to visit with a friend, and I will write more later. I just wanted to let you all know that I am still here, and ask you to pray for me as I seek His Will.
Thank you for hanging in there with me! I pray that your life is filled with blessings and peace. It should be for all of us, because we are held safely and lovingly
In His Grip!
Debbie
P.S. Some of you have asked how to follow me on Facebook. Send me a friend request, and a private message, telling me how you "know" me. I am happy to add anyone, but I don't respond to those with whom I have no friends in common, or can't figure out where I might know you from - not being snooty, but there are a lot of hackers out there, and I try to be careful. My name on FB is Debbie Westbrook Bennett. See you there!
HI DEBBIE I AM SO VERY GLAD TO HEAR FROM YOU AS I DON'T HAVE A COMPUTER AT HOME YET (WILL soon)I can only check here. I truly have missed hearing from you but certainly understand where you are at. One of my dear friends in PA lost her husband Nov 2011 and she is really struggling with the lonliness and trying to be patient on where to move or stay and all kinds of things. She said she is waiting for answers for the Lords direction as well so I will continue to pray and love you both. The thing I have always loved about reading your post are that you are so real your issues are just like everyone else and you just put it out there and I think that is what makes you post so special. There is no doubt in my mind that you are wrapped in God's love and the plans for you will be revealed. Sometimes we just have to set back and take a look at our lives. I was glad Isaiah is still a part of your life that is such a blessing for you both. I look forward to hearing more from you and just know we love you and are hear for always. Your KY friend Becky
Posted by: [email protected] | July 11, 2013 at 10:13 AM
Hi Debbie,
I have missed your posts and am glad to see this current post. I pray for you daily. Can't imagine all you are experiencing but know that the Lord has you close to Him and holding your hand. Continue seeking Him and He will answer when the time is right. God's timing is always right and perfect. Hope you are having a wonderful summer.
Cheryl/Lenexa KS
Posted by: Turnbull | July 11, 2013 at 11:02 PM
Missed your postings - so glad to see you posting again.
Posted by: Jane | July 14, 2013 at 02:51 PM
We all get in a place in our lives to see direction. Even so we all go through dry spells. Pray for me as I want to serve God by being a Chaplain. I want to help others in their walk for Christ.
Posted by: Carmen | July 16, 2013 at 01:59 PM
I'll surely be praying for you. I was "single again" for 5 years but God brought a wonderful man into my life. I had taped this sign on my computer that helped me stay focused during those dry, hard times... "Miracles happen when you are ready to receive them." And I had a friend that kept telling me my life would get better. We all need an encourager in our lives...I pray that those who follow your posts are a team of encouragers...always in your corner...always lifting your concerns to the throne of God.
Posted by: Janet (from KY) | July 16, 2013 at 03:18 PM
Debbie, it was so good to hear from you and to know that you are okay despite the loneliness. I know what you are going through as I have been a widow now for 17 years + and, as you know, it is not an easy "road". May God Bless You
PS: I will send you a friend request on Facebook. Have a blessed day.
Posted by: Wanda in Weatherford | July 17, 2013 at 09:35 AM
Hi Debbie
I'm glad you're back :) Even though I know you have struggles (like so many of us but you still just give many of us a lift. You're in my prayers so many times, I just pray God will send someone special to, yes we have our families, but it's so lonely when they all go home. I just lost my mom 2 weeks ago, she would have been 95 next month, I was so blessed to have a Christian Mom, but I sure do miss calling her and hearing her voice. I would never wish her back, as I know she is with her Heavenly Father, but often wish I could hug her one more time. I will pray for a great visit with your friend. Take care, we want the best for you & God knows about your loneliness.
PS. ..Have you ever read any of Marion Bond West's books? She lost her husband to cancer, God gave her another wonderful husband. I love the few books that she has written. You laugh & cry as you read her books, The first book I read was "Nevertheless Principle" and was hooked. She has inspired me so many times.
Posted by: Barb | July 18, 2013 at 09:51 PM
Hi Debbie,
So glad to hear from you. Am sorry you are going through a "Rough Patch". I wish I could give you a great big hug and all would be right and normal in your life. The last few years have been full of change and loss and I think that at some point your body says, "Hey, I need to catch up or refuel". Keeping busy is good but sometimes just vegetate or have a pajama day and do nothing is good too.
You are a very special person and have much to offer that a very someone special will come along and treat you as special as you are.
Will keep you in my prayers and God will keep you in His grip as you journey through.
Love and Blessings,
Judy Hicks
Posted by: JUDY HICKS | July 23, 2013 at 07:42 AM
well i guess that leaves out all us ordinary people who are just 20+ years fans of Roger
Posted by: elaine ellis | August 19, 2013 at 12:23 AM
I have been trying to find you on facebook as I have followed you and Roger for many years now.
Posted by: claudia earls | September 20, 2013 at 10:22 PM
Debbie I found you tonight on Facebook sorry I did not see all of the post or something and could not find you for awhile. I have been looking earnestly for it.
Blessings as you stand in HIS grip
Posted by: claudia earls | September 20, 2013 at 10:28 PM